Month of May

So according to my Dashboard on Blogger, my last entry was March 14, a tiny bit over two months ago. I can't really say sorry again because I just have lost a lot of interest in updating this little online journal I have. But it's not an excuse, it's not a good reason either. I must pull through and stay dedicated to keeping track of my life.


Ah, life. Life is good and while I do not have anything extremely significant to share I can tell you that I am overall happy.


For some reason my nightly discussions with Jimmy yesterday lead to the idea of repeating high school. He excitedly nodded to the idea of doing it all over again with his best friends at a time when life seemed more carefree. I suppose everyone has a different experience because although I had great friends and happy memories as well, I could not imagine redoing that again.

I can only reason that it is because of the age range in which high school falls in - though you see it in movies and tv shows, nothing quite prepares you for how your adolescence will be like. I won't speak for anyone else but for me I was shy, self-conscious, self-degrading, angry many of times, scared to speak my mind, lost at what I was really doing... times were tough!

My point of writing this out is if there is someone younger reading this just know that all the fear and hate and discomfort is...well, it's actually normal! You aren't meant to know why life is the way it is, you aren't meant to explain why you like one thing while all the popular kids like something else, you aren't meant to follow some unspoken ranking of popularity...but you will likely fall into the stereotypes, you will likely make mistakes and that is okay. The biggest secret to life that I have found is that making mistakes is part of the journey. You hate yourself for making them in the moment but will love yourself for making them later. Keep that in mind =)



In other news, Mother's Day was just this past weekend and we celebrated it with this:

Cheers!

My 2013 Goal

I had a goal in the beginning of this year and I am actually still pursuing it! Ten pounds, one year. To some the reaction is: "Woah! Why?" and to others the reaction is more like: "Why only ten pounds? You need an entire year?"

Well, this is a personal choice to make some life changes! I am not a big girl by any means but as a former active athlete, I struggle to keep a healthy weight nowadays. After I stopped my intense routines, I did not transition back well - I used to eat more to support all the activity but once I stopped working out (a min of 4 times a week, 2 hrs each time) I did not stop eating the same amount..this did not change till about a year or so later! Anyway, I want to slowly tweak, edit, and substitute things in my daily routine. Any weight loss will be gradual and comfortably done so. Ten pounds is the goal, if I surpass it then that will be fine as well.

To start off with, I have decided to cut down my processed foods intake - lessen the amount of chips, candy, sweet sugary drinks, chocolate... the most difficult is of course my somewhat daily Starbucks morning coffee. I currently drink it three times a week and will most definitely cut down eventually but sigh, one step at a time!

I had given up soda about 3-4 years ago with the occasional sip at events that do not offer water. I have also gotten back on the exercise wagon, trying to run a mile at least once or twice a week which I do want to eventually push to achieve more. Overall, I am trying to be more active this year.

If you are also interested in bettering your life, I hope to offer some motivation and ideas for activities! I'm no fitness guru or motivational speaker but I'd like to share my experiences with you all. :)


Activity idea:

Grab some bikes, sunglasses, sunblock, water and hit the streets! Especially on a beautiful sunny day, you may find new sights to see and new experiences waiting for you.

Back yet?

There has definitely been a time lapse since I've last typed anything on this blog. I'm sorry dear blog, I had no intentions of treating you as my old diaries from junior high where every post started off like this:

"Dear Diary, I'm sorry I have not written in a while"

I've been preoccupied with catching up on life so please bear with me while I get back into the swing of things.

The attached photo has nothing to do with this post.

A getaway

There's always. Time when a getaway vacation is needed. Not to mention a certain anniversary to celebrate!

Check back soon for a complete mess of photos! :)

MUSE!

First excitement for 2013, a Muse concert!

Checking my camera before the show began... nope, still  dark.

Then it starts!

If you are interested in going to future Muse concert then you should! They are very good live =) Check one on my To Do List!

Ah, finally. After a week and a half of coughing hell, I am feeling healthy enough to step out of the sick bubble and breathe fresh air. Everyone, please take care of yourself and if you are flu/cold infested then please quarantine yourself too!


More bloggy entries soon!

Still sick

friendship....lending your butt for a friend to sleep on??

I have had the worst few weeks from this flu. I am now laying in bed with a slight headache and many inconsistent hacking cough attacks, trying to find the words to describe how I feel. Let's try a list form:

Sick (duh)

Weak (sucks)

Helpless (suckier)

Upset (possibly from all the suckiness)

Hungry (at least I'm not THAT sick)

Sleepy (suckiest b/c I cannot sleep)



I've been laying here for the past few days trying to get some rest yet every time I try to close my eyes, I wake up to coughing! Ick.

Many episodes of Sex and The City later, I'm back at that point I always return to after watching such a fashionable lifestyled show... sitting in front of my closet, looking at all the clothes I've collected over the years, and still wondering, "Why do I not have anything to wear?"

Do any of you feel that way? I think it's a terrible waste of time to do this to ourselves, we all have the capabilities to pull together decent creative outfits from what we own but what we really lack is patience. I am going to make it a goal to try harder when I'm feel better. I want to stop spending money to try to find what I am uncertainly searching for.

Why did I start watching this show while I am sick? It makes me feel so sloppy! Lol, ok, I'm going to try to nap again. I am very sure it will end up unsuccessful but hey, A for effort!